Cold Season

Yeap it sure is the cold season these days. Especially when it rains for 3 out of 4 days during my field camp in NS. And... perhaps it seems that the coldness have hit hearts of my love one.

I really don't know what else to do already. It seems that she has been rather cold towards me these days. Very cold. I did my best to make her happy. Make her feel at home and comfortable with me. However maybe due to my abnormalities that is making her try to avoid me then.

Is wanting to be responsible a wrong thing?

Is trying to make your loved ones smile brightly a wrong thing?

I know I exaggerate too much with jokes. But all I want is to see the people around me smile brightly, I never minded if anyone called me silly or anything. All I want is just a simple wish : To see the people around me smile.

Haha...... Sometimes those that can't see are the ones that only believe those that they truly trust. And I know that I am not the one she ever really truly trusted me.

Perhaps to her, talking to me now is a chore. A very hard chore.

Everything I do or wish now is wrong.

I wish for motivation,

I wish for trust.

I wish for no more tears.

I wish for her happiness.


CoLiN GouLiaN Says: I wish I had a normal life that I didn't have things to be frank about with my loved ones. Cause if being frank has caused me a big turmoil such as this. I'd rather keep it inside me forever and ever.

COMPLETE!

As to further details to what the above titled meant. It meant that my life is now COMPLETE!

Yea Complete!


CoLiN GouLiaN says: Always treasure the people and things around you before its too late.

REVIVED!

Yes I swear nobody now knows that my personal blog is pretty much revived! With tagboard comments being deleted to so called "Start Afresh" and more. Oh yea hadn't been blogging ever since my birthday celebration last year. Just pretty much no time... or just...


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Plain lazy. So what! LOL!

Ok back to topic, I'm already here blogging so yea. Been working a hell lot at PLC after my graduations this year. Or to be exact right after my last paper that could determine whether or not I will graduate this year. So yea, I passed and I graduated with a GPA of 3.63! (Spit! It dropped from 3.66!) And yea I tried to chase a girl that I really like.. Or so I thought. But yea, we became quite good friends over MSN, and I swear MSN only! With random chatting nowdays.

Now? Well currently love life really isn't for me. Just pretty much not good enough for anyone I think. Even though in other people's opinion, I'm a nice guy and sorts. But seriously, If I was really that good, I probably would have some soul mate that I could care and protect. So yea, tried to chase one girl that I liked, which became love for me but ah oh well. She has her problems, I have mine. So maybe I wouldn't work out for now or for the future. Just as long as she is happy then.

So okay, back more onto life! After working for so many months! I finally bought my PS3!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! (I bought it on July 3rd btw) And yea completed 2 games. One was Final Fantasy 13, and the other is White Knights Chronicles. So now trying to save up cash to buy Blazblue. But argh, currently closing onto becoming bankrupt!

So what to do if you are on the verge of becoming bankrupt? You try to sell things! And no Calvin, I'm not selling my PS3! Nor selling it for 50 dollars! LOL! Anyways just digging out common and rare useful cards from my whole pile of spares right inside my messy room. Hoping that it would fetch some bowl of soup for me =X

And yes finally... ENLISTMENT INTO NS!

Hi guys, I'm going to enlist on the 16th of September. Am I scared? Not really, actually I'm pretty excited. Wouldn't mind a change of environment for now, and also the faster I get in. The faster I'll come out 2 years later. This also means... FREE FOOD FREE DRINKS! And I just might be rich enough at the end of it ahahahahahhahahahahahh!

For now, thats all my updates! Ciaossu!


CoLiN GouLiaN Says: I really wanna learn how to cycle =(

Been a long time Hmm...

Yeap been a long time since I updated! Either I was too lazy due to too much playing of WOW and YGO or I'm really just plain cannot be bothered! Nobody tags! True story!

Anyway the events these days were really happening!

Had advance birthday treats given to my classmates and my group of friends.

Thanks for celebrating with me guys!

And...

DAMN THE TOFU! LOL!

Anyways on Sunday 15/11/09 for the Asia Championships, grats Eu Yong Xiang for being able to represent Singapore to Taiwan!

However, I really wonder why didn't the management improve more....

The hatred from the public for the Organization is getting worst...

The game is slowly dying...

Is this how your organization wanted?

I'm sure not right?

If not why dun you guys do a better job?

Do you only really want your own members to represent for Championships?

See the game die and only your own members remaining to keep on playing?

Is it really fun to see that happening?

I'm different from my postings last time. Perhaps I owe you guys my grades for my Event Management cause you guys gave me a chance to help organise. So I will not flame anything because I'm not the kind of person that is ungrateful.

However...

Really...

Improve on the tournaments MOV.

I don't wish to see the game die, I'm sure no one would want to see the game die too.

To me..

YuGO was the game that lead me to meeting everyone. And changed my life totally, made me "grow up" at times.

Kenneth, Calvin, Raymond, Noel, Keith, Baha, Jeryl, Bao Chun and so many more. Were the people that I met that changed my life. Although I'm always disturbed by them. They are still the closest friends I ever had.

I might just quit the game before I enter NS.

But I don't wish to see the game die when I come out of NS.

Its a whole 2 years.

During this 2 years.

Lets see how this game will be carried on.

Well thats all for my updates for today.

Quite no link but... Yeap =)

Again.. THANKS EVERYONE FOR WISHING ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND CELEBRATING WITH ME! I WILL NOT FORGET MAN! AND THANKS FOR THE TOFU BANGING!


CoLiN GouLiaN Says: Grown up? Or Not?

4th day of the Holidays!

..... AND I'M FREAKING SICK ! SMLJ WTF BBQ!

Well it happened on Friday midnight, suddenly got the urge to go vomit. So ya, went to vomit every single bad thing. And I thought it would be better until....

3am - Vomit season starts again!

5am - TEE BAI! CAN DIE LIAO

Ok so my mum was awaken then asked me whether wanna go doctor at around 9am anot, I said see how isit first ba.

Woke up at 10am, felt alot better. Just that my stomach was really really hungry, but I had no appetite for anything what so ever.

But at 2pm, I asked my uncle to buy porridge for me, as I think that was the only thing which i will have appetiite for.

Ate only half of it, took medicine and went to bed.

And I woke up at 10pm! LOL!

Now blogging.

And heading to sleep!

Mugging!

Yes I know I should not be blogging at such a moment! But its really sian(its true!) mugging in a room with no excitement!(yes I know I should not be distracted! Come on! Its only until Wednesday!).

Well Its just boring me out so I just need some fresh air before I go back into my room to mug again!


I am confident of passing! Just not much confidence of getting "A" LOL!


CoLiN GouLiaN Says: Holidays are coming! Its time for adventure again! But to where? LOL

Uberly Sian

Sigh. So many negative things just happened all at one shot. I wonder why =(....

Must be karma! Hmmmmm...

Nothing to say la if it really is LOL!

For now I'll just emooooo for a few days, very sian and feeling very draggy.............................................................................................................

I really need something to puff up my life!

Sigh....


I


Am


Really


Sian!


Like


Really


Sian


CoLiN GouLiaN Says: Negative Mind for now. =/

YOYOI!

YOYOI! I've started to pack my room abit, more towards my "Assets" corner. I'm sure you guys know what are my "Assets" LOL! Anyways had fun cleaning it and finding lots of things that I thought was lost! Will post up pictures about it soon.

CoLiN GouLiaN Says: Can't take the game? Don't play the game